Yummy & Other Stuff

I found this recipe on Pinterest (where else?!) and made it for a dinner we were invited to last weekend. It was SO good and not very unhealthy as far as frosting goes. It tastes like marshmallows and it's super easy to pipe and it keeps it's shape and OMGit'sSOGOOD. Here is what my cupcakes looked like:

Here's the link to the original recipe and the recipe is below. For once, I followed it exactly because it was perfect and needed no tweaking:
4 egg whites
1 cup white sugar
1 pinch of salt
1 tsp vanilla extract
Place everything except the vanilla in a double boiler. (Or, if you're fancy like me, in a pot over a pot of boiling water.)
Whisk the mixture constantly over simmering water for about 5 minutes. (until the sugar dissolves and the mixture is hot)
Pour the mixture into your mixing bowl and beat the heck out of it for 3 minutes or so. It gets very fluffy and that's how you know it's done. It should not be runny.
(1pt+ per serving for WW if you make it 24 servings)

I see so many possibilities for this recipe! Can you imagine this fluff in whoopie pies? MMMMM!

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I'm struggling with anxiety again, and it seems exacerbated for 2 weeks a month, due to hormones. When I struggle with hormones and anxiety I also fight with my weight even more than usual. So, WW is not going well the last couple of weeks. I gained a pound at my last weigh in, but I'm working to get back on track.
I hate that it's never easy, and likely it never will be.

I don't want to struggle with my weight. I want to lose this stupid weight and be done with it once and for all. I KNOW that in the last week I slipped and didn't try very hard and didn't make time for exercise and that is why I gained. I CAN lose, but it's hard and I just got tired of hard for a little bit.  Sometimes I can only handle so much at once and last week my diet was not one of the things on the list.

I don't want to have anxiety that makes it hard to breathe. I don't want to spend my life worrying and stressed out, with my heart pounding in my ears. I don't want to live inside my head with all the thoughts that sound irrational out in the light of day.

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We've now completed 15 days of homeschool. Most days have been good, there have been some that were rough. It's a learning experience, right now, trying to figure out what works and how to manage my time with all the kids. We are figuring it out, and I'm very much enjoying seeing O reading and d is very into science and history - 2 subjects that weren't even touched on at school.

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Monday is surgery day! C & Miss L will be going in for surgery on their thumbs. I'm nervous, although I know it's a simple procedure. I hate them having to be put under for anything, and am not looking forward to The Crazy when they come out of it.
Positive thoughts are appreciated!